Tuesday, July 02, 2002

Hmm... not much happened today... i've come to learn that its not good to bum around too much.... it seems as the more we slack, the more tired we feel, and that's not good.... i can take like 3 to 4 naps a day(yes, i AM born in the year of a pig, so sue me) yet i can still feel sleepy throughout the day.... :| been procrastinating too much too haha... supposed to fill up the Application for Student Visa form and the acceptance form from SMU so that i can hand it up tomolo when i go to Spore, haha, its still like half-filled :( ok ok, i'll do it tomolo morning (now WHERE have i heard THAT line be4?) i mean i HAVE to... i've gotta hand it up and all..... haha.... my mum's oredi starting "announcing" to people that i've got into SMU.... sheesh.... and she keeps playing down SMU too :( "oh smu ah? ok lah, govt assisted lah, new one lah, not as long history as NUS lor..." give me a break will ya? it's not as if i no choice have to go SMU rite? i WANTED to go to SMU from the start... yeah yeah, its new, its small, so don have that "university" feel, do i look like i CARE? i've always been the course rather than the skool person..... even back in JC, people would sell their souls to go to skools like Hwachong and RJ, and they don care if they have to take a stream that's not suitable for them, just as long as they can tell people they're in that prestigious skool... i'd rather go to a skool where i CAN take a course i want, and the skool of course shouldn't be TOO low down the list, but respectable, and i can still hold my head up to tell people i'm studying there..... sigh.... at least my dad's keeping quiet.... hey, he's by no means supportive, just that he's keeping his hands clean.... if u noe wat i mean.... its like my mum has this must-satisfy list for an instituition to be considered a university..... must be too big for a sane person to want to walk from one end to the other, must have a dedicated bus service servicing it, must have a cohort where u CANNOT possibly know even one quarter of them yada yada yada..... i envy people whose parents don set that many rules for them.... but then again i'm who i am now becoz of these rules... not that i have low self-esteem, but i wish i were someone else haha.... :| gee, watever..... i'm not making sense.... ok ok, i better stop be4 i start reviving that "anit-establishment" side of myself again haha......

Dr@n|xX at 11:40 PM